Why have I lost it? Well, I finished all of my coursework in early 2010, so here I am two years later, right about the same time that I finished two years ago, and I haven't submitted my IRB draft. If you all knew how close I am to finishing final edits and the IRB application ready to submit, particularly those who know me, would be shocked that I can't seem to find time to sit down and just DO IT!
Well, the epiphany I had yesterday was not about being a procrastinator, I've known that for a very long time. The epiphany I had yesterday was why it is so hard to finish the few hours of work to have it ready to submit to IRB. Now, the story of my dissertation journey is not dissimilar to many folks that I know. Some of my cohort finished exactly on time, about six months after their coursework was complete. Others came behind in about a year or so after. Some probably will never finish or didn't finish all of their coursework. For a doctoral students, this is about par for the course.
I am earning my doctorate from an online university (the epiphany part is coming soon), therefore now that I have completed my coursework, I don't have anyone to collaborate with. No more papers to write, no more eight week 1:1 courses with my dissertation mentor. Here I am, all alone, trying to complete this. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my topic. It is something that I am still passionate about. And, according to this blog on ZDnet, item #3 is what I'm writing about. I committed this topic in late 2006 and the fact that it is predicted to be adopted in 2-3 years, well, it's time to get your dissertation published, I told myself.
So...here's what I've learned this weekend on my self-imposed housebound time to finally just get it done --- Inspiration is definitely needed!
- Find something that re-inspires you about your topic! Make yourself re-research your topic. When I first started on the dissertation journey, there were very few articles that were written about the value of online gaming for educational purposes, whether it's corporate training or teaching students. There were some pretty good books, but quite honestly most of what I was finding was on blogs, etc., research I cannot use in my dissertation. Spending time researching now, many more articles can be found on the topic, which is inspiring!
- Read! I bought the book, Writing Your Dissertation in Fifteen Minutes a Day written by Joan Bolker, EdD when I started my journey. Of course, I skimmed it, took away some tips and put it on my bookshelf. The book is now sitting on my desk and I did way more than skim it yesterday. Definitely worth the read and I have this weird "thing", if a book is on my desk, whatever the topic is about, it helps me focus on that topic. A little nuts, but for me it actually works. I have four books sitting on my desk to specific pages...three are for my "day job" and this one is for me.
- Start writing! I used to blog almost daily about my retail store. Of course, that was a marketing tool but I was still writing. I was writing up some tips to share with a class I teach for my "Twitter Project Challenge" so that they would use Twitter right to learn about the role that technology plays in creating a marketing plan using social media. What happened as I wrote this down in a blog?! You got it, I got INSPIRED to write (this is the epiphany!). Since my job deals, for the most part, solely with data, analytics and reporting, I work with numbers day in and day out...very little writing. After I wrote in the blog yesterday, I spent time researching and making notes last night. Today, I'm writing another blog entry and when I'm finished writing this...you got it! The final, final, final, final edit is next.
- Reach out! You have colleagues that have finished or close to finishing or maybe even struggling as you are. Reach out to them and have a chat. Talking about an area that you are struggling with can be so helpful to someone who understands your *pain*. I'm telling you, I put my dissertation away for about nine months because I was struggling with one area. I did reach out but it was to the wrong people, therefore, I didn't make any progress. In year four residency, all it took was 10 minutes of the instructor's time with me and I whipped out a four page section for the part that was keeping me from resubmitting. So, get yourself a peer support group, you'll be glad you did.
- Make everyone in your house leave you alone! You must have time to do this so you aren't distracted. I cannot tell you how often I have gotten up while working on my dissertation only to come back hours later to click the save button and close it. Set a schedule that your family knows or if you are like me and live in a house where there are no walls between the kitchen, family room, den and my office, I'm thinking about buying one of those hats that Michelle Pfeiffer wore in The Story of Us (1999) that had the blinking red light on it. They know not to interrupt me while I'm typing but since I'm re-working through edits, I'm not typing away at 100+ words per minute, so they think it's alright to talk to me. Shut your door, hang up an "appointment with mom, sister, wife, etc" sign-up sheet on your office so that your family knows you aren't ignoring them but that you need to not be disturbed.